Fé, Esperança, e Caridade: Heartbreak and pictures - "EVERYONE NEEEEEEEEEEEDS this, and I don´t want ANYTHING to stop it!"

So I had the biggest heartbreak yet of my mission yesterday. Totally cried....for a good long while.

So, ____ and ____. They have 8 and 9 years respectively, and I love their guts!!! I have gotten more attached to them than almost anyone else I´ve taught! Their parents are divorced, their mom is a member, and lives here, their Dad lives in another city and is a member of another church. Their mom asked us if we could teach them and baptize them. We weren´t sure if we could do that or not, so we talked with our zone leaders, and they gave us the okay. We started teaching them, they started reading and praying and coming to church. THEY ARE AMAZING!!! They read everyday! They even pray to know if it´s all true in the breakfast lunch and dinner prayers! They have EVERYTHING in the lessons memorized now, they are totally giving answers in primary, and just on FIRE, and we fell completely in love with them. And ....fun little side note.....the way it all worked out, we HAD to mark their baptism for my birthday this Saturday. XD!!!

BUT yesterday, I´m pretty sure my whole world fell apart. They were going to have to go back to their dad´s this week for a doctor´s appointment, but they would come back for the baptism. (We had seen MIRACLES with the whole story -their dad ACTUALLY ACCEPTED them being baptized, and even asked for them to bring home an extra Book of Mormon for him), so everything was looking perfect, everything taught, them as sharp and excited as anything, interviews done, numbers lined up, even the meeting was planned (all the way down to the hymns we would sing while we waited for them to change clothes after the baptism). I was talking to my comp about how much I would miss them during this week before they came back for their baptism, when our Branch President came out and said he had to talk with us. He told us that due to custody issues, they would not be able to be baptized. I cried for a good long time over that one. Their mother had already told ____, and he ran home crying, but she hadn´t told ____ yet, so we said our goodbyes, turned around, and just started crying (my poor comp having to comfort me when she was hurting too, she´s so good!) To twist the knife even more, it looks like they won´t even be coming back for a good long while with classes and everything, so I don´t even know if I´ll get to SEE them again.

WE´ll be passing along their address anyway, and praying like CRAZY for the miracle they need. PLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASE pray for them as well!!!!! I haven´t needed prayers for someone more than this moment right now!!!! PLEASE!

I have no more time, so I copied what I wrote to President:

I don´t know if I´ve ever had my heart ripped out quite like this.
I realized yesterday what that talk about the Atonement and Missionary Work means when it says to be true disciples of Christ, we have to walk at least a part of the path that He did. The pain I´ve been feeling over them not being able to be baptized is a kind of pain that I don´t know if I´ve ever felt like this before. It´s really intense, and just any thoughts of yourself just disappear. It amazes me just as much as it hurts.

I´m very grateful for the Atonement, and like we learned in the broadcast this week, the more you learn about the Atonement of Christ, the more you want to share it. I testify that that is true. EVERYONE NEEEEEEEEEEEDS this, and I don´t want ANYTHING to stop it! WE have a promise that nothing will, including our circumstances and own human weaknesses, so our call is to go out and SHARE!!! I want to be a better missionary and disciple. A better friend and sister. I´m trying and I´m going to keep trying, and I´m grateful to know that everything will work out because of Christ. It´s possible.

Pictures!