Life is simply better when you DECIDE to believe in something!

This has been the best week and one of the more trying weeks.....I think this explanation works for every week in the mission....haha!

I´m  learning a LOT about faith! My comp is a Sister Training Leader right now, so every week, we'll have two days of splits. ("Splits" are when each of them go out and work with a different missionary companion for the day.) This last week was our first. I was SCARED OUT OF MY MIND for these two days. How was I going to lead everything without her? What if I didn´t understand? How was I going to make effective contacts? HOw? How? HOw? HOw? hOw??!?!?!!? Well, I promised Heavenly FAther that I was going to pretend that I am the missionary that I wanted to be, and I was just going to need a lot of help. GUESS WHAT!!!!! THOSE WERE THE BEST TWO DAYS OF MY MISSION YET!!!! I was happy, I joked with everyone, I was bold, I taught (I actually talked TOO much, and had to back off to give my comp more chances to talk), and I made contacts out the wazoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I´m SO excited to keep this up!!! I need to learn how to lead more even when I´m with my normal companion-not be afraid to do well. It was amazing. 

The other thing I learned about faith was with the baptism of _______. I´ve never so adamantly believed in something before. Every time a little voice or doubt crept in, I killed that little bugger!!!!!! "________WILL BE BAPTIZED SATURDAY!" Seriously, I believed this with all my heart, might, mind, and strength. We did EVERYTHING we could to help him with his testimony, help him understand, have hope, and feel ready. But...............he wasn´t baptized.........so why did I feel so GOOD believing in this? It really shook me that I could believe so firmly, and then...KABOOM!!! Slap in the face, it doesn´t happen. 

Well, what I learned is that I was happy this week. Excited, and I was on FIRE. Conclusion: Life is simply better when you DECIDE to believe in something. Whe you have faith, you have a purpose, and you work for something. This will ALWAYS be better than being pessimistic, depressed, and lost with no purpose or direction. We´re not meant to simply drift though life aimlessly and half-dead. LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!! GO DO SOMETHING GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DECIDE to beilieve in something good, and then chase after it with everything you´ve got. Faith is ignoring those voices of doubt, and even the voices of reason. Some people may call you blind, but I´d rather be blind, happy and accomplish something with my life that have my eyes open to the doubt and fear in life and live under a rock until I die. 

Sister Hinckley speaks my heart:

“I don't want to drive up to the pearly gates in a shiny sports car, wearing beautifully, tailored clothes, my hair expertly coiffed, and with long, perfectly manicured fingernails.
I want to drive up in a station wagon that has mud on the wheels from taking kids to scout camp.
I want to be there with a smudge of peanut butter on my shirt from making sandwiches for a sick neighbors children.
I want to be there with a little dirt under my fingernails from helping to weed someone's garden.
I want to be there with children's sticky kisses on my cheeks and the tears of a friend on my shoulder.
I want the Lord to know I was really here and that I really lived.” 
― Marjorie Pay Hinckley

So yeah. LIVE this week. Choose something to believe in with your whole heart, and then go out and GET IT DONE!!! Remember that you chose this path before this life, and you were so strong. You´re that same person now, you just don´t remember, so pretend that you´re that same strong, capable, loving, patient, consistent, awesome, amazing, faith filled person that you TRULY are, and be ready for the surprising outcome. 

LOVE YOU ALL and have the GREATEST week EVER!!!

Síster Little!! <3